Still Christmas time! But, I am here alone. Laying, writing. I just finished reading the pages of Yes! Magazine featuring AlDub.
We suppose to attend mass together with my Mom and my elder sister but, unfortunately, hindi kinaya ng oras at hindi pa ako naliligo, so I would just attend the next mass.
Okaaay. So being alone here, I am writing this “lonely sessions” (haha! Bago nanaman) and tell you how introvert I am (i frequently read this “introvert” but i never been so familiar with it, pero dahil alam ko na ngayon, gagamitin ko na sya! Hehehee)
If I would to choose talaga, I prefer being alone. You know what? I can spend the whole day watching, texting, surfing, reading, sleeping and do it again. I can go shopping alone. I wanted to try watching movie alone. Eating alone. But not, eating alone at malls or restos. I really cannot eat alone on public places. Especially at malls and restos. Ewan ko, parang ang lungkot lang. Parang ang tanga tignan.
And the fact that I am alone, I feel free. I can do the things I wanted to do, like to talking to myself in front of the mirror (withous any fear of being caught), doing selfies, videos, recording, being emo, daydreaming and so much more. I can share my thoughts out loud, to the people I know, and the events happening around me. My what ifs, the it should be this and that, the musts, the choices, how should I react, what should I say, how should I say it, what to feel. Just everything and anything.
What I like about myself, is I am not getting tired nor bored of being alone. In fact, being alone for a day is way too short.
Not being so funny here, but I can live by myself with just a book or something to read, good music, internet, movies, bed and foods.
If I was just a little braver, I wanted to do travelling alone. Pero dahil takot sa mga taong hindi ko kakilaka and I am a little judgemental by face, I wasn’t able to try travelling alone yet. Pero gusto kong itry soon.
For me being just alone, is just being me. I got to do everything. Tryin put this and that, thinking about falling inlove, the future, what’s tomorrow be like, just random.
Well, I am not pretty sure what to say or to write rather, I just wantrd to pin this day of being alone. Most of the times, I chose to lie just to be alone and left, because it me and it makes me happy, a little sentimental, a bit private, I guess.
This is my escape, my reflections, myself.
This makes me the define the whole me that the rest of the world don’t know.